Welcome Home Parts 1-21 by PartyDoll
Brenda watched the scenery as it race past. This train moves to
fast, she thought, a little anxiously. She would soon be back in
Port Charles. Five years. It had been five years since she had run
from everyone and everything she knew. She still felt a little
pang of fear at the thought of what made her run. Jax. His
attacking her, raping her, had terrified her in ways she had never
thought possible. She closed her eyes at the memory that
threatened to overwhelm her. Going back to Sonny had been right
for her. The night she had nearly been shot and killed by Taggert
he had rescued her and taken her back to his place to calm her
down before he took her home to Jax. She had never made it home.
They had made love that night in what seemed like forever. She had
gone home the next morning to face a very angry and drunk Jax.
When she had finally gotten away she had been too ashamed to face
Sonny or anyone else, so she had left. She had gone all the way to
California, San Fransico to be exact. Jagger and Karen had helped
her find a place to live and a job. She felt someone move next to
her and looked down at the dark haired little boy next to her, his
sister was on the other side of her. These were her two reasons
for living. Marie Adela and Michael Stone. Her and Sonny's
chlidren. She had found out a month later and not being sure if
they were Sonny's or Jax's had kept her from sharing her secret
with anyone but Lois who had flown out to California and stayed
with her until she had gotten the blood results. Both babies had
been her and Sonny's blood type B-. Jax had been O. Lois had
wanted her to tell Sonny but Brenda had said no. She knew Jax was
still living in Port Charles and there was no way she was going to
live in the same city with that bastard. A small voice brought her
back to the present.
"What's up Marie?" She brushed Marie's hair away from her face.
She was so pretty. She and Michael both had Sonny's dimples, but
Marie had more of her features and Michael had more of Sonny's.
"Where's everyone going?" Brenda looked around. She had been so
deep in thought she hadn't noticed that the train had stopped. She
gently shook Michael and then gathered their stuff together. After
putting on her shoulder bag and taking the hands of the kids she
led them off the train.
Looking around the busy station she strained for a glance of Lois
or Robin. Then she heard the familar voice.
"Brenda! Over here!" She turned around and saw her two best
friends waving at her from twenty feet away. The kids went nuts
and ran for them. Lois and Robin each caught one and hugged them
fiercely. Then they hugged Brenda.
"It's so good see you two."
"I missed you so much, Brenda. I drove Jason looney the last two
weeks talking about you."
"Bren, Ned is so happy your back. He is over at the Charles Street
house you picked right now, unpacking all of your stuff and
directing Ruby, Mike, Laura, and Lucky."
"Well let's go! I want to see this place. I've only seen pictures.
I want to see the actual product."
20 Minutes later
"Ned!" Brenda shrieked upon walking into the house she had
"Bren! Hey little sister." Ned walked over and gave Brenda an
enormous hug. "Where are my godchildren?"
"Right here." answered Lois walking in behind Brenda, Marie in
tow. Robin was right behind her with Michael. Ned stooped down and
gave Marie and Michael a hug.
"You guys want to go see your rooms?"
"Yeah!" Ned took the kids upstairs and Brenda looked around her.
The room was beautiful. Everything was perfect. She spotted Laura
in the kitchen and decided to go and say hello. She walked in and
say that Ruby and Mike were also there.
"Anyone know where I can get a good slice of peacan pie?" Ruby,
Laura, and Mike looked over at her and yelled. Mike hugged her
spinning her around. Ruby and Laura hugged her at the same time.
Ruby had slight tears in her eyes.
"Ruby what's wrong? Aren't you happy to see me?"
"Oh darling of course I am."
"Mike how are you?"
"I'm fine. Where are my grandkids?" Mike was one of the few people
who knew. Everyone that did was in this house.
"Ned took them upstairs. Why don't you go see them?" Mike nodded
and left. Laura sat her down and started to feed her. "Laura is
something wrong?" Ruby gave Laura a look, then Ruby sat across
"Honey Luke knows."
"What do mean he knows, Ruby?" Brenda felt panic start to rise up
"He found the last letter and picture you sent me, Brenda." Laura
said sitting down down next to Ruby.
"Oh God." Brenda got up and walked over to the window above the
kitchen sink and leaned on it. "Did he tell Sonny?"
"No I didn't." came Luke's voice from the kitchen door. Brenda
turned around and as she did she half-expected to see Sonny with
him. But he was alone. "So Brenda, do I get a hug hello?"
"Absolutely." Brenda walked over and gave him a big hug. He
squeezed her tight. "How are you Luke?"
"I'm fine. I'll be even better after we talk."
"I believe that's our cue, Ruby." Ruby and Laura left and Brenda
and Luke sat down at the table.
"You're probably furious at me."
"Furious? No. Curious? Yes. Why Brenda?"
"You do not know how many times I asked myself that same question
over the years. Why didn't I tell Sonny he had two children? Why
did I leave my home and my friends? Why didn't I press charges
against Jax after he-" Brenda stopped suddenly looking at Luke in
"Brenda it's okay. After I found out about Marie and Michael I
made Ruby spill the whole story. I know what Jax did."
"I guess I shouldn't be surprised. Everyone in this town knows
everything sooner or later."
"Michael, what is it?" Brenda pulled her son up on her lap and
smoothed his hair.
"Uncle Ned said there was a hairy scary monster under my bed."
"Honey do remember what you and Uncle Jagger did to Marie on
"This is her revenge."
"I'll explain it when you're older." Michael looked at Luke.
"Who are you?"
"This is an old friend of mine. Luke, I'd like you to meet my son,
Michael Stone." Luke looked at Michael with fondness and a slight
sadness. "Why don't you go ask Grandpa Mike to help you unpack?"
"Okay." Michael hopped off her lap and took off. Brenda looked at
"Are you going to tell him?"
"You have a month Brenda. If you haven't told him by then, I
"Fair enough. Thank you Luke."
"You're welcome. Michael Stone, huh? Good job Brenda."
"Our daughter's name is Marie Adela."
"He'll be happy."
"If he doesn't kill me first." Luke laughed and then stood up and
walked out of the kitchen. Brenda needed to think and she couldn't
do it here. She walked into the living room. "Lois, will you keep
an eye on the kids? I'm going to go out for a while. I need to
"Of course I will. Go. We were going to order pizza for dinner,
"Fine. Just don't forget that Marie's allegeric to mushrooms."
"I remember." Brenda smiled at her best friend who tossed her the
keys to her van. Twenty minutes later she stood on the Port
"Hi Stone. Happy Anniversary. I guess remembering you for the last
five years is my way of trying to make up for the fact that I
forgot the first year. Guess you know why I'm here. I screwed up
big time Stone. But you probably already know that. Your namesake
looks just like his father. Growing everyday and I'm babbling
again, but you're probably used to that by now. I've babbled to
you enough over the years. I just really wish you were here. I
could use your advice right now." Brenda heard a noise behind her
and turned. Mac was standing there.
"Mac, hi. How are you?"
"I'm fine. Robin told me you were coming back today. I expected
you to be at the house unpacking."
"Everything's basically done. Ned took care of most of it. What
are you doing here?"
"Same thing you are. I woke up this morning and looked at the
calender. Hit me like a ton of bricks what today was." Mac walked
over and leaned on the rail looking out over the water. "I may not
have appreciated Stone until the end, but I do miss him."
"I know you do. Robin knows too. Ya know I remember being her the
night Robin scattered his ashes. The day he walked on stilts.
Helping him build the world's biggest ice cream sundae. I have so
many memories of him. I haven't lost one and every year on his
anniversary I'd remember them. From start to finish."
"I think Robin does that too."
"Mac, how long were you standing behind me?"
"Not to long. Don't worry, whatever you said to Stone is still
between you and him."
"I better go. Lois is going to start wondering what happened to
me. Oh, by the way I heard about you and Felicia getting married.
"Thanks. Bye Brenda."
"Bye Mac." Brenda got in the car and drove home. When she walked
in the door Lois was sitting on the couch with Brooke, Anthony,
Michael, and Marie. "Hi guys. What's going on?"
"Mommy, Aunt Lois is showing us her wedding pictures."
"Oh really." Brenda sat down on the couch and Marie immediately
climbed on her lap. "I missed you too sweetie. Where's Ned?"
"He and Mike went to pick the pizza up, Aunt Brenda." Brooke was
trying to get a better look at album. Just then Ned and Mike
walked in. Mike pulled Brenda aside as everyone went into the
"What is it Mike?"
"I saw Sonny tonight Brenda."
"How is he?"
"He heard you were back."
"I'm sure he did. Robin said she's been driving Jason crazy the
last two weeks talking about me. We all know that Jason tells
Sonny everything. Do you know what today is?"
"Yeah I do." Brenda smiled at him. She looked so sad.
"I need some air. Tell everyone to eat without me."
"You gonna be okay?"
"Yeah, I'll just be out on the porch." Brenda walked out the front
door just as Ned walked in from the kitchen.
"Porch. She said she needed some air." Mike gave him a look and
went into the kitchen. Ned walked out onto the porch.
"Bren?" She turned around, smiled at him, and turned back around,
crossing her arms over her chest. He walked over and stood next to
her. "You okay?"
"I guess. What are you doing out here? I smelled pepperoni when
you guys walked in. I know that's your favorite."
"Won't work Bren."
"Yeah I know. Never could fool you, could I? Why is that?"
"Can't fool family." Brenda looked at him, smiling, then her smile
faded as she sighed.
"Oh Ned, what am I gonna do?"
"You could tell him the truth."
"That is the last thing I'd thought you'd say."
"Why? Just because I don't especially like Sonny, doesn't mean I
think you should deny him the chance to be a father and don't
think I think that's the only reason."
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about the fact you still haven't told anyone outside
the "family" so to speak, that Jax raped you. You're afraid of
opening up Brenda."
"I'm not used to this you know."
"Used to what?"
"Being answered back when I talk about my problems."
"Who do you talk to that doesn't answer back?"
"Stone. You know a couple of times I even talked to my mother and
once I even talked to Lily."
"Yeah. Level with me Ned. You know why my mother left my father."
"Picked up a clue here and there over the years before I flat out
asked Julia what happened."
"She told you, huh? I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I would have
told you if you had asked. I don't know why I didn't anyway. I
guess I was a little embarassed, maybe ashamed." Ned hugged her
and as they headed back inside they heard a car tear down the
street. Turning they saw a snazzy sports car screech to a halt.
Even from a distance Brenda recognized the driver. It was Jax.
"Ned you said-"
"I know. I haven't seen him in over a year. He moved out of the
hotel and left town. He took Miranda with him." Ned looked at
Brenda. He could see her shaking. He took her arm and put her
inside, closing the door behind him as he walked back out onto the
porch as Jax walked up on the porch.
"What are you doing here Jax?"
"I came to see Brender. Where is she?"
"Inside. But if you think you're getting in there you're sadly
"I just want to talk to her."
"You listen to me. You come anywhere near this house, my home, my
wife, or her best friend and I will beat the living hell out of
you. Now turn around, get back into your car and drive away and
don't come back." With that Ned went back into the house. Brenda
was sitting on the steps. Without a word he sat down next to her.
"This was a mistake. I should have stayed in California."
"You listen to me, you came back because this is your home. We're
your family. We are going to find a way to keep that bastard away
"It's not just me I'm worried about Ned. What if he goes after the
"Brenda he doesn't even know about them."
"He could find out and he could try to do something to them."
"Brenda listen to me. You have a state of the art alarm system,
your speed dial is set to dial the police, us, and the Spencer's,
who by the way have a shot gun." Brenda erupted into giggles and
Ned did too. "So you see, you are not in danger."
"Thank you." She hugged Ned. Hours later she laid in bed thinking.
Her thoughts drifted. Her mind ran over some of the things Sonny
had said to her after he had brought Miranda back.
*"Safety's an illusion."
"I need you now. Not to rescue me to be with me."
"I love you and you love me."
"This is real. It may be messy, it may be inconvienent, but it is
the strongest thing you'll ever know."
"Those aren't emotions. They're excuses."* Brenda felt tears in
her eyes. Then there had been the last night they had been
*"I almost lost you tonight." He had looked so sad.
"You'll never lose me Sonny. No matter what I'll always be with
you. Tell me you know that."
"I do. I better take you home. Jax is probably worried about you."
He had stood up but she placed a hand on his arm.
"I don't want you to take me home Sonny. I want to stay here with
"Brenda?" She stood and kissed him.
"I want to be with you tonight. Tonight and tommorrow and everyday
for the rest of our lives. I love you. I realized that tonight. I
looked down the barrel of a gun and I saw you. I saw us. I want
us, forever." He put his arms around her and started to kiss her.
Her face, her neck, everywhere....* The memory faded when she
heard the doorbell ring. She looked at the clock. It was almost
midnight. She thought about calling Luke. Nah. She pulled on her
robe and went downstairs. Flipping on the lights, she peered
through the peephole. It was Sonny. She opened the door.
"Thanks." He walked in and she closed the door. "I'm a little
surprised you let me in."
"Why wouldn't I? Do you want to sit?" She gestured towards the
couch and he sat down. She sat in the rocking chair across from
"Well it is almost midnight."
"Yeah I noticed. So what's up?"
"Came to welcome you back. See how you were."
"You couldn't do that at a decent hour?"
"I could but I figured that if I came late at night no one else
would be around."
"You wanted to be alone?"
"Yeah. I didn't want Ned to be around when I tried to talk to
"Because I have something to say and I didn't want anyone to
interupt." A creak sounded upstairs and Brenda looked up. Marie's
room was right above them.
"Will you excuse me a minute? I have to powder my nose." Sonny
nodded and she ran upstairs. She creaked open the door to Marie's
room and slipped inside. She smiled at her little girl who, as
usual had kicked all her blankets off. She covered her up and
kissed her forehead. She stirred a little. Brenda slipped back out
and quietly shut the door. Then she headed back downstairs. Sonny
was standing over by the fireplace examining a picture of her,
Lois, and the kids. "I'm back." He turned around.
"Cute kids." gesturing at the picture.
"They are, aren't they?" He put the picture back on the mantle as
she came down the rest of the stairs.
"I recognize Brooke and Anthony, but who are the other two?"
"Do you want some coffee?" She said dodging his question. She
walked into the kitchen and flipped on the lights. She busied
herself making a pot of coffee, then when she was done she leaned
on the counter. She breathed deeply. She couldn't dodge Sonny
forever. Sooner or later Sonny would find out about Michael and
Marie and then? What would he do? She heard him come into the
kitchen. She quickly composed herself. "Do you still like sugar?"
"Yeah I do. How do you have all this stuff? I thought you just
moved in. Yet everything's in place and you have groceries."
"Well Ned took care of almost everything. I ordered furniture and
he made sure it got here okay and that it went in the right rooms.
Lois and Robin went grocery shopping yesterday and everyone else
just helped. It was really nice of them."
"Yeah it was. So are you going to answer my question?"
"The one about who the other two kids were in the picture of you,
Lois, Brooke, and Anthony."
"Oh they're Michael and Marie."
"Whose kids are they? Karen and Jagger's?"
"No." She turned around to face him. "They're mine."
"You heard me. I have two children. Twins actually. Marie was for
my mother and Michael is for their father."
"This isn't how I wanted to tell you."
"Tell me what?"
"Sonny you and I-- We have-- I can't do this."
"Yes you can." She turned around, putting her back to him again.
He walked up until he was standing directly behind her. He turned
her around and took her face in his hands. "Brenda, nothing can be
so terrible that you can't tell me. Don't you know that? When you
answered that door tonight and I looked at you it was like nothing
had changed. No time had passed. Those five years didn't exist. Do
you remember what we talked about that last night? Spending the
rest of our lives together. Having kids, being together till we
were eighty. I told you that I loved you with all my heart and I
"Sonny we do have children. Those two children in that picture are
Michael Stone and Marie Adela. They're yours. They're ours."
Brenda closed her eyes, feeling tears escaping. When she opened
her eyes again she saw Sonny staring at her. The look in his eyes
was unreadable. "Sonny, I'm sorry." He took his hands away and
took a few steps back. "Sonny you're scaring me. Say something,
"Yes." She heard the pot whistling and she turned it off.
"How did this happen?"
"That last night we were together. That's when it happened. As for
how I think you can guess."
"You left the next day. Nobody knew where you were. I was scared
to death until Lois and Robin got letters from you."
"I'm sorry if I scared you."
"You ran away. From everyone and everything."
"It was a long time ago and I didn't run, I left."
"You ran and I want to know why you ran."
"It doesn't matter why."
"The hell it doesn't. You left me. You didn't tell me I was going
to be a father. Instead you ran away. Now tell me, Brenda, why did
you run away?"
"You want to know why I left?"
"Yes Brenda I do. That's why I asked."
"The morning after we made love I told you I needed to go back and
end things with Jax. You asked me if I wanted you to come with me,
do you remember?"
"Did Deke ever force your mother?"
"What do you mean force?" Sonny's face started to clear as he
comprehended what Brenda was saying. "That son of a--"
"I don't believe this. Why didn't you tell me?" Brenda sat down at
the table and Sonny sat across from her.
"I was ashamed and humilated. You know when I found out I was
pregnant I was scared to death. No matter what if the child had
been Jax's I wouldn't have kept it. There was no way I was going
to keep a child conceived in rape. Not after it happened to me."
Brenda wasn't aware of her words and when she realized they were
out she looked at Sonny. She got up and tried to walk around Sonny
into the living room but he got up and put his arms around her.
She just started to sob. He stroked her hair and just held her
until she stopped. Then he took her hand and led her into living
room. They sat on the couch, Sonny's arms around her and her head
on his chest. They just sat there not speaking for a few minutes.
"Why didn't you ever tell me baby?"
"About Jax or about me?"
"With me, I guess I didn't think it mattered. With Jax I just
thought you might think differently of me."
"Well that's where you're wrong. It definately matters and as for
thinking differently of you. Never happen." He kissed the top of
her head and then rested his chin there.
"Thank you." She said in small voice.
"This. I know you must be furious at me because of Marie and
"I'm not furious. I'm a little upset. Why didn't you tell me? Did
you think I wouldn't be a good father?"
"No. I knew that no matter what Deke did to you or how lonely you
felt after Mike left I knew that you would be a good father. Even
though Jagger said I was totally crazy."
"Bren, have you seen Jax since it happened?"
"Five years went by and I didn't see him and then today, BOOM! He
literally drives back into my life. Ned told me he hadn't seen him
in over a year before tonight."
"He was here?"
"He was out on the front porch. Ned headed him off. Then he came
inside and reminded me about the alarm system, the speed dial, and
the Spencer's shot gun. He had me laughing which was good because
at the time I was thinking about grabbing the kids and get on the
first plane back to California."
"I'm glad you didn't."
"Bren, do mind if I stay here tonight? It's just that I'd feel
better if I knew you were safe."
"Not a problem. I wouldn't mind. Just be up before the kids come
"Okay." Then phone rang and Brenda groaned.
"It's after one in the morning, who the hell is calling?" She
leaned over Sonny and picked up the phone. "Hello? What the hell
do you want? Look Ned made it clear you are not to come or call
here ever. If I have to I will get a restraining order." She
slammed down the phone. She was shaking. Sonny just wrapped his
arms around her and held her all the while thinking about how to
make sure that Jax left her alone and to make him pay for hurting
the love of his life...
Brenda shifted and her hand hit something that was soft and hard
at the same time. She opened her eyes and saw that her hand rested
on Sonny's stomach. She smiled softly and then pushed herself up
and looked around and realized that they had fallen asleep in the
living room. She looked at her watch and gasped. The kids could be
coming down the stairs any minute. She started to shake Sonny.
"Sonny! Sonny wake up!"
"Whaa? Brenda? You weren't a dream. You really are back." Brenda
smiled at his words.
"Yes sweetie, I'm really back, but you have to go. The kids could
be up at any minute and I have a really busy day ahead of me."
"Do the kids know about me? Did you tell them anything about their
father?" Sonny asked as he put his shoes on.
"I didn't lie and tell them you were dead if that's what you mean.
I told them that their father was some place else."
"Why didn't you tell me when you knew?"
"Because I wasn't ready to come back here and this is where your
"You're my life. Always have been, always will be."
"I love you. They're going to too."
"I'd like to meet them, get to know to them and someday soon,
marry their mother."
"You mean that?"
"Absolutely. So I'm going to go and wake Joseph up and have him
take me home. I'll see you later?"
"Yeah. You know Lois is going to take the kids to the park with
Laura and Lulu if you want to go and watch them. I'll tell Lois
ahead of time."
"Where are you going to be?"
"I have something I need to do." Sonny nodded, kissed her, and
left. A couple hours later after she had picked out a car and Lois
had taken the kids to the park Brenda stood in front of Lily's
"Hi Lily. Better late than never I guess. I think you know why I'm
here. Sonny told me this morning he wanted to marry me. I want to
make him happy and I think I can but I'm scared. I'm scared of
letting him down, of hurting him, of getting hurt. But most of all
I'm scared that he'll never really forgive me for keeping his
children from him."
"If you're so scared why marry him?" Brenda whirled around. Jax ws
"What the hell are you doing here?" Brenda took a step back. She
felt terror swelling up in her.
"I wanted to see you so I waited until you were alone."
"You've been following me?"
"I'm going to walk around you, get into my car, and drive home and
if try to stop me, so help me I will scream bloody murder." Brenda
started to move towards the gate when Sonny stepped into her path.
He smiled at her but then he caught sight of Jax. His smile faded
and his expression became hard.
"Brenda go wait for me at your car. I walked here from the park,
so I'm going to need a ride home, okay?"
"Just go okay baby?" She nodded mouthing the words be careful. He
nodded and she walked away, thinking Heaven help Jax.
"So Jax what are you doing here?"
"I came to pay my respects to your wife."
"Very cute. You following Brenda?"
"What if I was?" Sonny never got a chance to answer because Brenda
came flying into the cemetary. She was out of breath and she was
crying. Sonny put his hands on her arms. "Brenda. What's wrong?"
"Lo- Lois." She was gasping for air and trying to calm down.
"Baby calm down. What about Lois?"
"Are the kids okay?" Brenda nodded and her face crumpled as she
dissolved in sobs. He took her in his arms till she stopped.
"I'm coming too." Brenda whirled around.
"The hell you are. I do NOT want you anywhere near the hospital or
Lois. Am I making myself clear? Just remember that Ned threatened
to rip you apart if you came near me or her." With that she took
Sonny's arm and led him away, leaving Jax staring after them.
*10 minutes later*
Brenda and Sonny walked into the emergency room waiting room. She
"Ned." He turned and opened his arms wide. She ran for him and he
caught her in his arms. "You okay?" He pulled back.
"No. I'm scared to death. I can't lose her Brenda." He sat down on
the bench and she sat down next to him. Sonny sat in a chair a few
"Alright big brother, time for you to listen to me. You are not
going to lose her. Lois Marie Cerullo Ashton is a fighter. She
fought for your life together and the life of your child. That's
why you love her and that's why you married her." Ned looked at
her. What Brenda said had sunk in. She was right. He hugged her.
"Ned this is going to sound a little weird, but where are the
"I'm sorry. Laura took them home with her."
"All of them?"
"Yeah. Emily and Lucky are there and Laura is under strict orders
not to let Emily take Brooke and Anthony home with her."
"Well I'm going to go call them. You gonna be okay?"
"Yeah. Go." Brenda smiled and walked in the direction of a pay
phone. Ned noticed Sonny. "Hi Sonny."
"Ned. How are you?"
"I've been better."
"This is going to sound a little stupid but did you call Gloria
and Carmine?" Ned's eyes went wide.
"No." He started to get up but Sonny motioned for him to stay.
"I'll go. Stay here in case there's any news."
"Alright. Thanks Sonny." Sonny nodded and walked away. He found
Brenda in front of pay phone. She was smiling fondly. As he got
closer he could hear her words.
"You listen to Laura sweetie. Tell Michael if he doesn't behave I
won't let him watch Sesame Street for a week. Yes you have to eat
your vegetables. Same rules apply there as home. I love you too
sweetie. Now put Laura back on. Laura? I'm sorry about all that.
We will. Alright. Bye." Brenda hung up the phone and immediatley
picked it up again. She dialed and a moment later someone
answered. "Can I speak to Robin Scorpio please? Yes I'll hold."
She spotted Sonny and waved him over. "Hi. How long have you been
"Long enough to realize you are a great mother."
"Well thank you kindly. Robin? Hi. Everything's fine. Well maybe
not totally fine. Lois was in an accident tonight. We don't know.
I will. I will. I promise. Right. Love you too, little sister.
Bye." She hung up the phone and looked at Sonny.
"I gotta call Gloria and Carmine."
"Oh God. Do you want me to do it?"
"No but I want you to stay with me while I do it."
"You got it. Need some change?"
"No." He put his own change into the phone and dialed Bensonhurst.
"Hello? Gloria? It's Sonny. I'm fine but Lois was in a car
accident. Yeah. Right. See you soon. Bye."
"They're on their way?"
"Yeah." Brenda turned away from him and walked toward the window
at the end of hall. He walked towards her. As he got nearer he
could see that she was sobbing. He put his arms around her and she
leaned back against him.
"I'm scared Sonny."
"I know. Me too."
"I hate hospitals. After Stone died I never wanted to be near one
again. Correction after you nearly died from that heroin overdose
I never wanted to be near one again."
"Bren, she's not gonna die."
"You're right. I hope." Just then Alan came out of the trauma room
and walked towards Ned. Sonny and Brenda walked over.
"Alan, is she okay?
"It'll be touch and go for a while, but we think she'll be
fine...." Suddenly Brenda wasn't hearing Alan's words anymore she
was hearing the words of the emergency room doctor the night of
the car crash that nearly killed Karen, herself, and Marie and had
killed Jagger's daughter Jessica.
"And my daughter?"
"We're sorry Mr. Cates but Jessica didn't survive. We did our
best." Jagger had nodded numbly and Brenda had taken his arm and
sat him down. One of the nurses brought Marie out and she had run
for Brenda. Jagger had looked at them with tears in his eyes....
"Brenda? Brenda!" She heard Ned's voice.
"I'm sorry. What?" Ned noticed the look on her face and knew what
she had been thinking of. He and Lois had been visiting at the
time of the accident. "I need to be alone for a while. Excuse me."
She turned away and walked down the hall.
"Brenda!" Sonny started after her but Ned grabbed his arm.
"Let her go, Sonny. She needs time."
"Time for what?"
"Sit down." Sonny and Ned sat down on some chairs. "A couple
months ago Brenda and Marie were in a car accident with Karen and
her daughter Jessica. Brenda and Marie came out of it without a
scratch but Karen and Jessica weren't so lucky. Jessica lost her
life and Karen lost the child she had been carrying. Brenda feels
responsible because she was driving. I think what Alan just said
brought back some bad memories for her. They were basically the
same words that the other doctor said to Jagger."
"Oh God. I gotta find her." Sonny stood up. "Thanks Ned." Sonny
walked down the hall in search of Brenda. As he made his way down
the hall he passed the hospital chapel. He paused and looked in.
There she was in the front pew. He slowly approached her. One leg
was drawn up to her chest and the other rest on the floor. He sat
next to her without a word. After a few minutes she looked at him.
"Hi. How'd you find me?"
"I passed by and saw you. You okay?"
"No. I'm scared to death and I don't want to break down on Ned or
Gloria and Carmine because I'm supposed to be the strong one for
them. I figured coming here would make me feel calmer."
"C'mere." He pulled her onto his lap. "Now I want you to listen to
me. I don't want you to ever feel like you have to put on an act
with me. You can cry or scream or do anything you feel you have
"Okay. Thank you." She laid her head on his shoulder and sighed.
They sat like that for what seemed forever.
"I love you Bren. I don't ever want you to forget that." She
raised her head off his shoulder and looked at him.
"I never have. I knew you loved me even when you said you hated me
because I did the same thing. I've loved you forever."
"Well then I guess I have only one question."
"Will you marry me?"
"Will I what?" Brenda wasn't sure she had heard him right.
"Will you marry me?" She could feel tears in her eyes. She
couldn't believe this was happening. She had been waiting for
years for those words from this man and now she was finally
hearing them. She tried to speak and found she couldn't so she
just started to nod. Sonny leaned forward slightly and whispered.
"Yes! Absolutely positively yes!" Sonny kissed her long and hard.
When they got too urgent Brenda pulled back. "Sweetie we're in the
middle of a hospital chapel."
"Good point. Can I take you home?"
"What about Lois?"
"Ned'll call if there's any change besides I think she'll
"What about the kids?"
"Laura's got them at her house and she's probably expecting to
take care of them all night."
"So any other problems?"
"None that I can think of."
"Then let's go home." Brenda stood up and offered her hand to
Sonny. He took it and they walked out of the chapel. After a quick
stop to tell Ned to call them if there was any change they headed
back to Brenda's house. They made their way upstairs to her
bedroom. Brenda sat Sonny down on the bed and said she'd be right
back. Then she disappeared into the bathroom. Sonny laid back on
her bed and waited. About fifteen minutes later she appeared in
the doorway. She walked over to him and kneeled on the bed. He sat
up and put his arms around her kissing her and then laying her
gently on the bed. Sonny pulled back for a moment and took his
shirt off. He rested his hands on either side of her and she
reached out taking his face in her hands. He looked in her eyes.
He had seen that look before. It was there the first time they had
made love in Washington. A combination of fear and calmness. She
pulled him toward her and they kissed and kissed and kissed and
(well you get the idea).
Hours later Brenda woke up. She rolled over and saw Sonny watching
her. She smiled at him and he pulled her into his arms.
"Very." She said giggling.
"What's so funny?"
"Nothing. I feel drunk for some reason."
"Really? What a coinsidence, so do I."
"Robin told me she used to feel this way after she and Stone used
to make love."
"I felt this way after the first time we made love."
"I love feeling this way again."
"Mmmmm Me too." The doorbell rang and Brenda whimpered. "What time
is it?" Brenda lifted her head and looked at the clock next to her
"It's quarter after eleven."
"A.M. or P.M.?"
"P.M." She started to get up but he pulled her back down.
"Ignore them and they'll go away."
"What if it's Laura?"
"She would've called."
"Then who could it be?" She looked a little scared. He knew what
she was thinking.
"You stay here. I'll go." He got up and began to dress. He headed
downstairs. He reached the front door just as the bell rang again.
He opened the door and found Jax standing there along with
"Fred, Ethel. Come on in." He turned and shouted up the stairs. "Lucy we got
"What the blazes are you talking about Corinthos?" Jax said stalking in. He looked
around. "Where's Brender?"
"Right here. What are you doing here? Hello Miranda." Brenda said coming down the
"Well we just came to see how you were. We heard Lois is going to be fine."
"That's right she is. What did you come over here hoping to find me alone? I know you
were gonna have Miranda watch you rape me this time. Maybe you thought it'd turn
her on." Sonny put his hands on her shoulders to calm her. She took a deep breath.
She fixed her steely gaze on Jax. "Get out of my house before I call the police. I'm sure
Mac would love to throw you in jail."
"I'm not leaving you alone with a mobster. Besides we should talk."
"Get over it Jax. That line about Sonny got old and tired a long time ago. Besides say
what you will about Sonny but he never forced himself on me. He never had to." Jax's
face turned white. "Now get out." Jax grabbed Miranda's hand and dragged her out the
door. Sonny held it open for them.
"It's been real." He shouted out after them slamming the door. A few seconds later they
heard his car peal out. He turned around to the sight of Brenda picking up the phone.
"Hi Mac, it's Brenda. Call me when you get this message. The number is 555-9497.
Thanks. Bye." She hung up the phone and turned around. She smiled at him as he
walked towards her. He took her in his arms and hugged her.
"You okay, baby?" As he settled her on the couch and turned on the stereo before
sitting beside her.
"Yeah, I guess." She leaned against him and he put his arm around her.
"What'd you call Mac for?"
"I'm getting a restraining order."
"Joseph could restrain him."
"That's something I wanted to talk to you about." She sat up and looked at him.
"You're going to make me your wife. Am I going to have to take Joseph with me
everytime I go to the store or take the kids to the park? What about when Marie and
Michael start school? I don't want them to have to take a bodyguard to school with
them. I'll be damned if those kids grow up in a fishbowl."
"If you don't want a bodyguard then you don't have to have one. Can I at least get you
"A driver? I guess that'd be okay. But when I take the kids to the mall or something I
want to be able to drive them. You can send Joseph in a seperate car or something."
"You seem really oppposed to a bodyguard, any special reason?" She leaned back
"I had one for a couple of years when I was younger."
"Really? I didn't know your old man cared so much."
"He didn't. My grandfather did though. I'm telling you it drove me bananas." She said
"No bodyguard, I promise. Now can we talk about something else, please?" His
answer was deep, even breathing. "Bren?" He smiled and kissed the top of her head.
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