A thin line between love and hate (Prologue and chapter 1) by Stacy

Think back-----

Sonny wrecked Brenda's and Jaxs' wedding. Sonny had brought Miranda to town and
Brenda is furious with Sonny. It will start off after Brenda had went to go see Sonny
and told him how much she hated him (at the club). Remember when Sonny asked her
if when Jax touched her if her eyes would shine and if Jax touched her in the special
place the way he did? Remember that. We will take up the story from there. Here is a
prologue and you tell me if I should continue it or not.

~Prologue~ CALLED THIN LINE BETWEEN LOVE AND HATE

Sonny watched Brenda storm away. He knew she was furious with him and that put a
smile on his face. He let out a little laugh and walked back into the club and sat next to
Jason.

''What's so funny?'' Jason asks.

''Brenda hates my guts.'' Sonny says with a smirk.

''And that's funny?''

''The way she is when she is pist at me. It's great. When she hates she does it with all
she has and she does the same thing when she loves. It's a part of her that drives me
crazy.'' Sonny says.

''I see. So, you want her to be mad at you?'' Jason says with confusion.

''That will do for now.'' Sonny says before ordering another drink.

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Brenda races into GH and finds Jax sitting on the couch in the waiting room. She
walks over and sits next to him. ''Hey. How is he?'' Brenda says with a smile.

''Same. Where did you go?'' Jax asks her.

''I needed to go get some air. Did you see Miranda tonight?'' Brenda asks.

Jax looks at her. He can tell she is upset and doesn't want to upset her anymore. ''No.
Why?''

Brenda couldn't believe it. She asked him a question and all she wanted was honesty
and he couldn't even give her that. How could they build a life together if he couldn't
be honest with her.

''Jax....'' Brenda starts.

''What? Brenda, please just hold on to our love.'' Jax tells her.

''How can I when you won't be honest with me? I love you and that doesn't matter to
you because if it did then you wouldn't have lied to me just now. I was there Jax - I
saw you go and see her.'' Brenda says angerly.

Jax was having a hard time believing this. He didn't want to lie to Brenda, but he also
couldn't believe that she would follow him. ''You followed me? You talk about being
honest? What's with trust? Didn't you trust me?''

''No, I didn't trust her. She's going to tear us apart, Jax.'' Brenda says.

''No. If anyone is going to tear us apart it is going to be you.'' Jax says and then walks
away.

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Miranda walked back into Mac's house and finds him on the phone. She waits for him
to get off.

''How did you talk with Jax go?'' Mac asks.

''Nowhere. He wants me to stay. I just don't think it's fair to anyone that I stay. I
mean, he was just about to get married and I ruined it.'' Miranda says.

''Maybe it's not what he wants anymore now that you strolled back into his life. Ever
think of that?'' Mac tells her.

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Luke sits next to Sonny and Jason gets up to go use the phone. ''So - what happened
with Brenda?'' Luke asks.

''We fought.'' Sonny replies.

''What did you do this time? Oh, that's right - the wedding. I must say you had good
timing.'' Luke says.

'I know. You should have seen the look on Candy Boy's face. Brenda was so mad at
me. She is blaming me for everything that happened. Imagine that?'' Sonny says.

''What's next?''

''Who knows. Wait for her to come to her senses about Jax. He doesn't deserve her.''

''Who does? You?'' Luke asks.

Chapter 1:

Sonny wasn't quite sure how to react to Luke's statement. He wasn't quite sure how he felt about Brenda. He knew he loved her - that had never changed and never will, but he wasn't sure if being together was the right thing to do.

"I didn't say that. I just don't think CandyBoy deserves her, that's all." Sonny says.


"Right. Well, who does?" Luke asks.

"I don't know. How am I suppose to know? She just doesn't love him the way - " Sonny starts but stops.

"The way, what? The way she loved you? Come on Sonny, you won't let go. Are you sure it's not her your after?" Luke asks again.

"We can't be together anymore. Too many things have happened." Sonny says.

"All right. I just hope you know what your doing. Now, are you going to do the books tonight or do you want to wait till tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow. I think I am going to go for a walk." Sonny says.

"All right, Partner. Be careful." Luke adds. Sonny nods and then takes off.

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Brenda got up off the couch and went over to where Jax was. She put her hand on his arm. "I'm sorry. You don't need this right now. I just don't want to lose you." Brenda whispers.

Jax turns around to face her. "You won't. But if you can't trust me then I don't know what to do. Can you stay here for a little bit. I need to go for a walk." Jax says.

"But Jax...."

"Please. I need to think things through." Jax says.

"All right. But hurry back." Brenda says.

"I will." Jax says and gives her a kiss on the top of her head. He forces out a smile and walks away.

Brenda watches him. "G*D, have I lost him forever?" Brenda says to herself.

Brenda was furious for what Sonny had done to them and swore with everything in her that she was not going to forgive him. But she couldn't help but remember some of the things he said to her that night.

*FLASHBACK*

S-"Do you want me to tell him what he's going to lose? How you look in the morning? How your eyes shine when your touched in that certain place. Does he touch you in that certain place?"


*REALITY*

"What do you want from me, Sonny." Brenda thinks to herself.

Brenda couldn't sit there any longer. She needed to think and she knew exactly where to go.

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Miranda makes her way down to the beach. In a way it reminded her of Jax. They didn't have much of a beach in PC, but this was the closest. She didn't know what to do about staying or not. As she was thinking she heard footsteps.

"Jax, what are you doing here?" She asks.

"I was going for a walk and I guess I ended up here." Jax replies.

"Yeah, me too. It reminds me of - nevermind."

"It reminds you of where we spent out time together. I didn't forget either. I remember every moment like it was yesterday. How could I forget being with the great love of my life?" Jax says to her as he gets closer.

"Jax, stop. You have Brenda now. You can't do this."

"What do you want me to do? Forget that we were ever together? Forget that you were my life?" Jax says to her.

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Brenda makes her way over to the docks. She stops on the steps and sits down. She knew this was hers and Sonny's place, but it was also a place she went to think.

"What's happened to me? What am I going to do now?" She wonders.

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Sonny finds himself at the docks. He sees Brenda sitting there and a smile appears on his face. He walks towards her and when she hears footsteps she turns around.

"What are you doing here?" She snaps.

"Came to think." Sonny answers.

"Well leave."

"No way. It's a public dock. I can be here. If things are so great with you and CandyBoy what are you doing here?"

"I just wanted some fresh air."

"This was the only place you could find? Come on, Brenda. You came here to think about us. You came to the one place that always made sense for us. Can you honestly tell me you weren't thinking about me?" Sonny whispers.

TBC...comments?


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